Hello all. I know it's been a while, and I hope you're still out there.


So my life lately has been a winding path filled with ups and downs, turns, twists, and all around chaos. Until recently I assumed I would be going to college this spring and taking the first step towards my dream of working with and helping animals. However as I'm writing this journal it saddens me to say this is not the case anymore. My mother has deemed it appropriate that I go to job corps, and since she is my only support net, i.e. place to live, food, and other necessities, and Tampa is too expensive of a place for a college kid to live by himself and go to school, it seems that I am stuck going to this dreadful place. Now instead of going to college to get my degree and start working in the field of veterinary technology, I'm going to be forced to waste a year of my life going to job corps to learn a trade. A trade that I will never use and that of which the knowledge will not be useful in my future career choices. And did I mention that I don't even get to pick what trade I want to do thanks to the fact that my mothers husband works directly with the director of this program? So not only am I being forced to go to a place I don't want I don't even have a say in what I learn there. How fucked up is that? 19 years old and since I have a control freak as a mother I can't even do with my future what I want. This isn't for lack of trying though. I got a good job, moved out, and started saving money. Unfortunately about three months ago I had to move back in with my mom because I got laid off. Thank you Florida economy. When I moved back in we had worked out a deal to let me go to college and live under her roof, but her husband convinced her differently and now I get to be shipped off to job corps. I have no other options. No other family or friends to turn to down here. So in a nutshell I'm fucked. I just want to be able to do what I want with my future without any interference from anyone who wants to choose my life path for me like they know what is appropriate for my future. Those decisions should be left up to me

It feels go to be able to rant on dA again.